Be OK

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As the end of the year is approaching, I find myself planning out the next year. Afterall, 2020 turned out nothing like I expected. So, how do I go into the next year uncertain? But, really every new year we are uncertain of the future. There is the science of what could happen based on history, but no one actually really can say what the future holds. This year I expected to focus with 20/20 vision. Instead the biggest lesson learned , for me, was I have control of nothing! I am liking this lesson. I like trying to make the best of things and then looking, seeing and appreciating what is good around me. I really like looking at the paintings I created. They are small, but to me, they speak volumes. Why did I choose the colors I did? Looking at it now, they are the colors of the store I have been working in, which will close in three days. Why did I pay so much attention to a dollhouse from when I was thirteen? Why do I feel this need to make bedspreads, wallpaper, and little art works from the scraps of fabrics and tags from April Cornell's store? This morning a lot of these answers came up in a 45 minute video I watched about a dollhouse at a current exhibit at the Museum of the city of New York. It is all about control. These are things I have control of. So, as the new year presents itself, I feel really excited. I really can't wait to have the time to dig into my creative and artistic self. And, just see what happens. Not, set high expectations and just go with it. Accept the amount of control I have of my life, and just enjoy it. I just want to be ok. Quote of the day: I just want to be ok today Ingrid Michaelson Song of day: Be Ok Ingid Michaelson

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