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Life gives you lemons.....make margaritas!

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Always buy the pictures, too! Make the most out of life and have no regrets. I was the kid by August, I wanted money to go down the street to see a movie or buy some candy. I was tired of the beach, and would rather sit outside and have a lemonade stand. During that time we always had kool-aid, lemonade, iced tea or even tang on hand. Making drinks from powder was really economical and convenient. But, thinking of what I did when I had my stand, it makes me know who I am as a worker. I am a self starter, for sure! I always tried to sell what I already owned. If I bought a comic and read it, I resold it. I always had to have some kind of pretty tablecloth. I started counting cars and would write it down. I figured out when people were leaving the beach, and that would be the best time to set up. My neighbors were my best customers! When we traveled I was always envious of other countries. How Artisans would have stands and booths on prime real estate. Especially, at a

Taking the first step

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It is hard to stay focused and motivated with uncertainty. I am going with the flow here, but when you don't have an idea what the future holds it is hard to move forward. So, I go from one idea to another of what kind of job I want. I am still on a job search, but for the first time on my terms. I have worked weekends for my whole life. At age 5 I was helping my dad at gem and mineral shows. I really have not had much down time. So, my mind, body and soul, most of all, were telling me I needed to slow down to take a rest. At the beginning of the year my friend and I went to New Egypt flea market where they have about 44 old military houses on the property that they rent out. I came home and thought wouldn't that be great. I could use half as a studio and half for sales. I had all sorts of ideas. But, they are full. It is very covid friendly, since it is mostly outdoors. Then I decided to challenge myself with a 100 day project to satisfy the need to create som

Vacation.....all I ever wanted!

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During my working years, every January would be the time to pick out vacation time! Traveling during a pandemic is not really a good idea. So, I daydream about all of the different vacations we have taken. I feel really blessed I don't have anything left on my bucket list. The most visited country, other then the USA, I have traveled to is Mexico. The summer going into Sophmore year of high school my dad told me we were going to Mexico. I actually was mad for a couple of reasons. I had finally gotten a job. I was working at the Warren Hotel as a chambermaid. I did it all on my own, even riding my bicycle to Manasquan High School to get my working papers. I was told I wouldn't be able to work there next summer, because I left before Labor Day. I also missed the first few days of my sophmore year. But, the trip helped with Spanish class and it really helped with the reality of how lucky I was. We had traveled to NYC so I was aware of poverty. The nitty gritty of it

Journey to Joy

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I finally feel I have had enough, of feeling like my four year old self. I really needed the time to give myself to feel all the feels. But, enough is enough. I need to move forward. I need to start making decisions. So, step by step I am starting a new journey. I hope you will join me. I have taken a first step and it will start on May 1st. It feels good to be excited about something. It is full of hope (literally). And, it is not just about myself, it will help others. I can't wait to share with you and hope to write each day for a little while. I am also abrubtly ending my 100 day project this week, too. This will allow me to focus on my new endeavor.

You Make Me Feel Like A Natural Woman

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The last few years leading up to the pandamic I was getting my hair dyed and cut on a regular basis. I was on weight watchers right next to a place I was getting waxed for facial hair. I put on some make up. About five years ago working full time and commuting back and forth for work, I remember enjoying an half hour lunch with a co-worker friend. We were talking about what we "wanted". I thought about how when I was young there were girls who were peace lovers called a"flower child". And, I knew it would not make my parents very happy. And, with Charles Manson exsisting at the same time and I considered his followers what I would think of a flower child. I never really wanted that either. I didn't want to be a follower. But, I did want to just have time to enjoy nature and have a natural appearance. I never did wear much make-up and still wear the same lipstick color as the day I got married. My sister had those flower power stickers and smily fa

Be OK

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I took this picture at the funeral home the other day. Making arrangements to bring my mom and brother to rest with my father yesterday. My mom passed away right before Covid became a reality. Her Memorial service at St. Catharine's was beautiful. But, the timing wasn't right to bury her. It just didn't feel right, because my son was still on the road touring. So, yesterday my son and I put my mom and brother to rest. It was a hard day. But, waking up today I feel the stregnth of a new day. I hear the birds singing. Rain is falling on a summer garden I planted last weekend (still hoping it was not too early). I have a bunch of collages I am working on, that I am happy with (so far). VHS videos I had left at Costco in January are finished and ready to pick up. I ordered a book my son-in-law wrote. I watch videos over and over again of my grandson from Easter. My son and I were able to chat a bit, which always feels good. My friend's saying that"ever